Wicker Park

常常我走進紅色的腳踏車發現有人坐在我的座墊上，然後我說了聲不好意思那是我的車，再換來一句不好意思。不知道這樣代表什麼，儘管我也從不正眼看那些人。那時候買完麵包回來，Joanne問我一些問題，你告訴我要看她，幾年都過了我還是做不到。

怎麼愈來越懦夫。連斬釘截鐵也要努力一下。

Me neither.
It's not only you.
我覺得我快要變成交給吳尼爾的那篇小說裡的她了，但是也不對，敘述的口吻本來就是我，所以無論如何都是我，沒有什麼是能變成或不變成。
我根本就支撐不起一個人，還談什麼更多呢，到今天我還沒去看紅十字的東西，兩天裡除了工作什麼也沒有意思，雖然是工作本身有意思而非內容。
值得occupy and devote.
我明白你說的那些。

When we go back to the start.
我喜歡那裏，猜她並不是芝加哥，但還是想這樣以為她是。

I miss you.
Things just don't get so well as I thought it could be.  I need a room, where my entire world can lie itself within, where I could be Ms. Five, and need not know the meaning of A DENTIST.
I need to see my grandma, need to go somewhere else.
Can I just be irresponsible for a while and abandon you?

Cover my life with the chaos of trouble.

I don't feel comfortable being anyone's anything.

I am the hero of the stars, don't need to be saved.

She's got you high and you don't even know yet.

沒有力氣
難不成我是要再更忙嗎

好像在坐雲霄飛車
可以排隊一半落荒而逃嗎。

容納將來

I discarded the letter that I'd kept for nearly six months.
So let's wave goodbye.
And bye.

I hope I won't forget anything happened in that room, 4F, Nova.

But things will never stop if I keep myself like this, all the time and space.


想要的東西就要去掙。
今天跳樹葉的時候我覺得我就像這樣在過生活。

好的，
我想要有事件而旅行，電影，閱讀，排球，世界的互助與上升。

然後紐西蘭的事情再次讓台灣人施展了一次即時的絕佳救援能力，
與相較之下，慢性的災害所給予的漠視。

那些畢業旅行什麼的

看到你寫的關於小草地的文章。
我想說我喜歡吃椰香的乖乖。

我想大人們永遠也無法了解在遊覽車上沒有伴的窘境，你害怕那個人與你不慎相熟，沒有話聊，或是你做在那個位子靠窗，看著外邊的人走了過去又過來，其實新裡想的是等一下誰會來坐在我身邊，眼睛的寬度這會兒就被拉了老大。

小時候要回基隆野柳畢業旅行，看海洋生物館，那個爺爺幫里人們看病拿免費的魚和有一大堆老朋友的地方，有很多冒著考魷魚香的攤販還有斜斜的鹹鹹的海味。遊覽車上我塞著耳機捧著隨身聽，跪立在靠窗的位子，沒有人坐在旁邊，大家在嬉鬧，儘管耳機里的音樂是老大聲我也知道。你要和我一起聽隨身聽嗎...？
長大了一點的畢業旅行，或者是說換班旅行，是很彆扭的模樣，儘管右邊的人一直都在，但永遠也沒有辦法做得正坐得跟坐著一樣，大人不知道得事情很多，眼睛淺淺得閉著也還是看得到相機的閃光燈在喀嚓，然後回家的時候再洗出所有的照片，包進透明袋子裡，封入盒子裡，你們都在裡面，雖然現在都不一樣了。
在更大一點的畢業旅行我都記不得，也許是因為一直悶悶不樂，遊覽車換過這台再坐到那台，我不知道自己屬於哪裡，就像左手邊的位子永遠是空的，儘管大家分食乖乖的時候也會說自己以前喜歡的零嘴，然後趴在別人的椅子上照相比耶。

這幾天想起畢業旅行，不對，
一直都在想將來的畢業旅行，
你要和我一起去哪裡嗎...?

My Little Nephew

給你和童童 :)

It's funny how one thing happens
That changes your whole point of view
Everything that seems to matter
Is cast aside for a better dream

You're growing faster with every minute
Second photograph
I wish I could spend more time with you
My little nephew

Every day's a new discovery
I'm a child again looking through your eyes
Every step you're teaching me
Out of full cried "get up and smile"

You're growing faster with every minute
Second photograph
I wish I could spend more time with you
My little nephew

But you're far away and I'm over here
Memories are lost in the span of your soul
When I go will you miss me?
When I go will you remember me?

You're growing faster with every minute
Second photograph
I wish I could spend more time with you...

See you learn to tie you shoes
Say that skies are blue
And that your best friend is Winnie the Pooh

My little nephew

ISFiT day15-way back into love.

00:27 in Taipei

17:27 in Amsterdam, Netherlands

I was like falling into asleep immediately right after the plane took off Oslo.

I received the mail from Bukkvollan.  I am now the big sis from that family; nothing more I could have been.

Hope I did give you sth, sty that I can give my real family.

(Two men are sitting 20 meters away playing guitar and singing in francais.  I just love this language for it could be violent and beautiful at the same time.)

I didn't really miss anything till Marcela left me, till a hug separated us.

I guess I just put too much on the power of Facebook or internet.  You were right; we lose the best part, which is that we can't touch each other.

(just dial you, guess i was just too silly that i did so.)

I miss Sunny, Marcela, and the whole bunch of you.  Ten days can't make more than that.  And you were again right; I think I can attend another ISFiT, for there won't be the same one anymore.

Everything was so simple; hugs, kisses, talks.  And why the hell I just can't do this in Taiwan?  Why I just kept waiting people to hug me?

(cest une chansan tres jolie.)

Yes.

Little finger pipi.

.

.

.

.

Can we just not go back to the reality?

And this damn cold flu is just killing me.

I need another vacation.

ISFiT day14-just give me drugs.

14:26 in Trondheim, Nova conference centre

21:26 in Taipei

People saying goodbye is just so easy.

I still remember when we were in the train station, you hugged me and pushed me onto the train to Bucuresti.  It's the last time that I felt the difficulty of departing away, or waving friends good-bye.

Nothing is easy, neither the promise.  Still the words just came out of my mouth, as if the simplicity within it will cause some reality.

I just don't feel that much.  I love you guys, but the time just too short to let me place you somewhere here in the middle.

Or the excuse could be as simple as my feeling damn unwell.  I wish I could have flew home by now, to see you and mom.  I think I wont attend uni on wed.  It's been a long time that I haven't felt so sick.  oh man.

(A very old couple just come and speak so damn well in english.  What the!)

Crushes, tolerance, friendship, conflicts, knowledge, love, and so much within my heart will stay till some day I pass away.

(Alam just told me he is 26.)

I should have spent a whole fett day with Lorange.  Everything there was just fantastic; I cant imagine a better family here in Norway.  I know the appearance exists but still, I love them all.  I wrote a long letter to them last night.  Now the thoughts have been driven away that I can say no more but appreciations and loves.

We aren't attending the closing ceremony.  We would rather stay together in nova and spend some more time here.  I would rather typing my memory and thoughts out here outside without internet than go inside pretending I am so well and laughing with you.  I just can't.

Marcela's beautiful, moaning, and cleverness; Arcelia's coolness and my implicit affection; Lenka's smile, friendliness, texts, and close; Sunny's hugs, joke, accent, and laughs; Tamar's  beautiful smile, shy voice and dancing waves; Antony's long explicit conversation, hugs, confident speaking, and smile; Marcos's funny, positive, love for kids, brazilian face…. though it's been only nine days and I felt like also being simply nine days, as long as i kept them down, they will stay here.

I still remember I sat on that long desk of schiphol airport writing my affection towards Iasi and Romania.

damn, i just miss everything over there.

i told Loranges about Lund and the futures; and the expectations were set up.  But I  am just so not sure about my future.

I feel I am so lucky.  I am the youngest here in the workshop.  I have actually no expectations before I came to ISFiT.  I set up minds for being brave and open, and I did.  But I really thought of nothing in advance.  Maybe I was just too adjusted to the international stuffs.  It;s just amazing to see how this people can back you up in the other side of the earth, that we could do something together and feel no loneliness from the people physically around us.  Yes I am not alone for doing these.  The frustrations and the sense of achievement are shared.

It's not your fault the world is being like this; it's your fault that the world stays like this.  - Deutschland.  

And I believe that yes we are just living too much in the circle and we don;t see where the resources coming from and where the wastes going away.

Can I just have some more time of myself and learning cooking?  Can I just have a little bit more taste of both life and food?  Can God just don;t let me forget about how I feel at the moment?  Can I just take the concepts with me for good?

For you, please don;t lose yourself; don;t take things for granted; be aware of the things around you.

Those who do not study life and history are bound to be condemned to repeat it.  And i just believe in this so much.  I did not go to school to become anything.  I can do whatever I like as long as I have the belief in me and lots of things.  I can do so many things, though still weak in some way.

Dream, don't forget to dream.

Don't know if there is some more to say; my head is bombing, 

I miss you with all heart.

ISFiT day11-UNITAID

I just talked with you.
And you come to my room.  I said to you, "do remember me."
I am so glad and grateful that I could be here, being your first isfit student.
Times being with you just so fast that I can't manage to let it pass through.

It's been a super impactful day.
But gotta wait for you so just list something I wanna say afterwards.

TW&CH from my historical explanations.
people concept @ family gov fb world perspectives
international status

first aids

global cafe
global problems responsibilities education
condoms abortions
male and female

deve-ed
-ing

143 gathering sharing money energy resource tech
humanity selfish
cheaper to save lives
US share medicine
I believe when you produce sth, you will share with me.
international institution
Marcos
transfer of knowledge
idealistic

red cross drama literature programm

"I hate them."
I am just so not into saying that I am _______.
Anton
own eco-social company

Yes, there are just ideals.
But one day it's gonna be made into reality.
It's just a matter of time.
The world is going to be better.
Nothing to do with AIESEC anymore.
It's just me being me.


Tomorrow we are gonna rock these 10th grade kids.

motivation

看完網站後我就申請了
那時候剛回來 腦袋都是iasi還有NC的事
連Trondheim怎麼念都不知道
現在坐在一個有143個國家的amphitheater好感動
矛盾到哪裡都是
貧窮經濟與環境 自以為是的幫助與自我成長
所以我選擇了最直接的 承認一切然後期待有一天都會更好
藉著一些成全與努力
我不是坐在那裡看著沒有變化的
----

http://www.isfit.org/

嗨
各位台大的學弟妹大家好
我是B94的老人.....

這邊我想跟大家介紹一個我人生至今參加過最棒的一個活動
叫做 International Student Festival in Trondheim (ISFiT2011)
這個活動辦在Trondheim, 挪威
是全世界最大的國際學生節

ISFiT是每兩年辦一次的學生節  約十天左右
主要的目的是讓學生了解世界和平的重要
每次會有許多不同主題的workshop  每天都會進行討論和活動
除了workshop之外  ISFiT還會安排很多很棒的演講以及活動
每一年的開幕以及閉幕請來的演講者都是非常知名的人物
2009年的是Dr Desmond Tutu!
在活動的期間  有個Student Peace Prize的典禮  這個算是ISFiT的重頭戲!

我參加的是ISFiT 2009 Workshop 4: International Trade
當年亞洲人真的很少  台灣人應該只有我一個 (就我知道的啦...)
回台灣之後真得覺得自己從這個活動中學到很多
想要跟大家推薦!!!



另外想補充一點
從2009年開始  ISFiT有對一些特定學生提供補助
我當時很幸運地拿到一筆可以cover我來回機票的獎學金
我剛剛看了一下網站  今年也有提供!!

2011的報名已經開始了
今年是到九月三十號截止  約十一月的時候會發信通知是否錄取
活動則是2011年2月11日到20日

詳細的報名資訊或是活動內容 網站都有
如果有任何問題都歡迎與我連絡唷! asokame站內信!

很希望在ISFiT2011看到更多的台灣學生!!

PS.尤其對學弟妹來說
這是一個非常好拓展國際視野的機會
而且可以經由WORKSHOP的討論
從不同的角度了解國際議題以及世界和平的重要性
希望學弟妹有興趣的人可以申請看看唷!!!!

ISFiT day8-my new family in Bukkvollan

I've never thought that I would mean so much to you.
When the present was presented by three of you in front of me, I felt so lonely and warm at the same time.
Lonely for no one could share my feelings and the shit that happened previously; warm for I now have Ingrid, Jakob, Sigurd as my brothers and sisters.  When climbing up the snow hill for the bus, in the mall, at dinner table, at living room for the card games; when you asked me to wake up a little bit earlier; when Anna said you asked for me yesterday, I know that this time I do make myself a qualified sister.
When Ingrid and Jakob hugged so tight there in the dark, you have know idea how shocked I was.  I quickly turned away as if my past and current life in TP offended this holy scene.
Again you are so sweeeeeeeet and lovely; again I need to ask you come to my country, thousands of classes skipped would not make up for the things you gave me.
The miss of the speech worthed.


Ski made me miss that speed when in 6th grade.
I should have done that once more at that hesitated time.
See you next time in August; I will come back.

Now I think of the COMING BACK.
Iasi and Trondheim.

I will be there at 7.  You watch.

ISFiT day7-Closing the Gap in a Generation

just grab the time before bed to memorize sth meaningful in these beginnings of isfit.
i looked up to my notebook and found that nothing is not meaningful to me.

absolutely nothing.

back to the time in oslo airport, i met this girl from Iasi, who knows you guys.
my first question to her was that, "are you from AIESEC?"
she said no.  but she was the president of the engineering student association from the other side of the red bridge.
gosh i miss you so much then.
we did not talk a lot and in the beginning i searched every corner of my memory trying to find some words in romanian.
you know what, the first word came to me was faci pipi.
so silly.  i miss penilla.
since then when i met her:
ce faci?
bine, si tu?
bine.

everything was just amazing.
Harry Potter's house, in the amphitheater at the moment, people from 143 countries sitting there talking in different languages.
a chance of a lifetime.  i did manage to get so well along with you.  i did do the things i promised myself; being open and sincere, trying to explain myself and listen to you.  crown prince of Norway was unforgettable although the unforgettable part was his identity.  the student peace prize and things happend in Roros were super impressive.
the speech by Michael Marmot & Hans Rosling were the speeches best and the most inspiring in these six months, not other speeches attended though.
the silence when Marmot asked, "Do we have the will?" explained everything.
yes the people sitting here are the once who were saving money to fly to Trondheim, instead of saving money for shoes, washing maschine, or TV.
there were times i felt so much AIESEC.
HEY AIESEC!
YOU BITCH!

Kino, in the workshop 7 with you, how things went on were like in ITtT but still they were fett.  i love this Czech Lenka and Mexico Arcelia.  Arcelia and Kenya Harun reminded me of Jose.  and this Slovakia Marcela kept making me think of Niki.
the heavy stone on my heart again broke by the fact that people here dont necessarily study environment or biology.  we are all simply connected to the climate and environment in a way.  we were just interested and hope that we could come up with the solution to the issue dealing with health.  i love our values: friendship&love; tolerance&respect; trust; knowledge; creativity.
every moment i was amazed.
the recycle and the waste of paper; bump with people and sorry; cultural judgement...

still my throat was like in the winter in the 2nd of senior high, total crap.
i wanna talk!!  give my voice back!!
it wasn't cold as i expected the -15 celcius degree should be.  still freezing though.  tons of gratitude to my host family.  they were so warm and generous.  everything is more than i expected.  the talking with you were great, i love the way i am an adult.  i could say nothing more here but thank you.
the sun comes out earlier now.  up on the hill, it is beauuuuuuuuuuutiful.


tomorrow's the skiiiiii day.
gonna get funky :)))

i started to think of the first thing i wanna do when i meet you.

ISFiT day4-byebye Oslo in snow

When we entered this city it was snowing, now likewise, and dogs and cats.


Anker is like a contemporary home; I throw myself in all the time, simply to get closer to you.
Dear mom you were wrong, our home is seriously entirely undeniably my truly and only home.  Hostel is much more at the moment; you can not feel history, all you see is travelers coming and going, foreigners gathering around.  I feel like already been through this by my eXchange in Romania and bit not want to get myself involve with these.
You tolerate people and make people tolerate you.

People in 313, Anker Hostel:
Barcelona cool girl: sleeps early and wake up late, holds a single eye cam, wears teenager shoes, quite, buries herself in her map.
Portugese woman: talks on the phone all the time with a guy named Anton, a mother, is ill, a bit superstitious.
Canadian woman: rocker, traveler, wanna go somewhere similar like home so chose Norway, Paris is too warm.
Brazilian woman: warm, cute big round eyes, isfit politic workshop, interested in Chinese things.
Taiwanese woman: NTU dep of politics, international relationship, isfit, traveler.


Shops open at 10 a.m. and close at 8 p.m.  7-11, Deli, and N____all over the city.
I went out last night around eight thirty, nearly empty street.
Cold but at least up 0 celcius degree, need more clothes.
Though weather just ruins half of the beauty of the city, it was still amazing; the snow, the sunshine, the language, and the people on the streets.  I feel like back in London, in the western Europe.
This is so much different from TW and bit different from RO.
Last night I thought of Lund, and its distance to Stockholm.  What if I wanna be like Mendy go travel and be a couchsurfer?   If I cannot be in Stockholm, why not go Copenhagen?  There's a Oresund inbetween these two city.  But that will happen after December, the fall semester.
It's actually rubbish to talk about this right now, useless.

I want to have lots of identities, and I know I can do this.
Only if _________________________________________.


A patch, 12 NOK.
Oslo traffic card, 200NOK, never used.
1.5L water, 30 NOK, tap water is drinkable.
Three tall sized cafe, 60NOK.
Postcards, 42NOK, haven't go post to get stamps.
This city is INSANE.



If it weren't that cold, I really don't want to stay here doing nothing.
I wanna go out and see things by feet, map, money, and brain.
Really should have go inside the Nobels Fredssenter.
I won't be here when I am rich.

Ha det Oslo,
Hei hei Trondheim.

ISFiT day2-EMG

1207 in Schiphol Amsterdam

1907 in Taipei

This is an emergency.

I am A TAIWANESE, living in Taipei, never actually hurt anyone or intend to make a bomb attack.

I wear a pair of slipper to go Oslo in winter; I feel fine.

When you ask me the questions, I was calm, feeling ok, though we should be on boarding in ten minutes.

When I saw the waiting people are dark, coming from middle east, border between Asia and Europe, there's a bull in my stomach.

When 10:25 is getting near, when you finally fix that goddamn system, I was really mad and furious at the people, society, and the circumstances.

This is not fair, though nothing at all is fair.

We were stopped at the customs when it's time that we should be boarding.

"We will get you on flight."

This is absolutely insane.

There were a Parisienne, lots of unknown mideast people, and that man being stopped twice heading for Paris; we waited, and waited.

(shit I have no idea where my luggage is.)

I spoke to her, which made me truly hope there might be some day speak francais naturally without hesitation.

Oui c'est un situation très difficile.

Time pass; we waited, eternally waited.

Then we'd been asked few questions and documents and number of ISFiT is required.

And mom you were right; it's insane that they didn't tell us where and whom we are gonna live with.

On a attend pour le temps que on peut utiliser pour beaucoup de chose dans ce trip.

On a attend il y a eu longtemps.

We missed our destined flight and one possible flight; now we've been waiting for another possible flight to Oslo Ger_____ airport at 1350, not the original airport, but the ticket attendant said she would make our luggage there for us.

It's only a possible flight cuz there's no seat remained; it's full.

We are in the waiting list.

You know what idiot, you did not make us on flight.

If we did not make it, then we can only take the flight at eight o'clock tonight.

This is absolutely insane.  By the time we get to Oslo, it will be dark already.

I do have the ability to handle situations and that I am thorough.

I am learning.

Still, I didn't have the power to control myself, appearing childish and complaining.

I am not not ok with waiting, bore, unclean, uncomfort, hunger, thirst, nor any inconvenience happened.

It's ok.

It would be more than ok if your were here.

I think of you when taking every pictures, thinking what should I say if I introducing anything to you; I look at all sweets, thinking what might be your expression if you see these.

I bought a white chocolate; it's a small and expensive piece, and it tastes very much milk powder.  I love it though.  It's my lunch, including a cafe mocha.

I am tired.

Reeeeeeeeeeeealy hope that there might be two people occurred with some accident serious enough to not get them on the flight, so we could get in.

How mean.

Everything would be fantastic simply for the Internet provided.

Biggest wish: LIE DOWN.

ISFiT day2-moan

0712 in Schiphol Amsterdam

1412 in Taipei

Ginger's got a big trouble.

What/How would I do if it were me?

This is a journal of an un-target.

No aim's been made.

There's nothing said understood, the complexion of state of mind.

the trip ISFiT2011 in Trondheim Norway vs the exchange student in Lund Sweden

Opportunities offered and decisions made are spread in front, I couldn't figure out a way to make it matter less.

Is it an ISFiT or rather a travel of dream?

Mindset is undone.

Be brave and see things to come.

Finger crossed for you.

魏如萱 - 香格里拉

曲／詞：黃玠　演唱者：娃娃

我以為認真去做就能實現我的夢
以為寫首好歌　走路就能抬起頭
以為騎摩托車旅行就能變英雄
現在的我　失去了衝動

有才華的人唾棄金光閃閃的獎座
親愛的 Cobain 是否也曾愛慕虛榮
多希望有人衝破疑惑帶我向前走
現在的我　變得好懦弱

雨會下雨會停　這是不變的道理
夜空中北極星　迷路的人不恐懼
我唱歌你在聽　一切風平又浪靜
Ｇ和絃的根音　撫平脆弱的心靈
我只想牽著你　走到很遠的夢裡
小木屋紅屋頂　地址是一個祕密
你抱著小貓咪　藍眼睛不再憂鬱
香格里拉在那裡　讓我們去找尋

a 20 ans

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MwuOnD75tGA

看到你說的我想想必也是動心得要老命吧
怎麼我都夢做了一半還不敢全部給他完成
想得太多牽絆太多

但是沒關係
當這樣說的同時你說的話我聽在耳裡
也是可以慢慢來的吧我也才二十是要逼自己到哪個極限

昨日和你打球忘記好好說掰掰留你一人與P先生我很壞
看你扣網扣得有點亂但我什麼也沒說為什麼呢
都是因為心裡還有事
看見什麼不是什麼
慢慢來喔我們都不是天才


亂七掰遭的日子過得挺好也愛宿舍
吃遍從一年級就想吃的公館的食物更好
只是為什麼你們都不在


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