L'insouciance est le seul sentiment qui puisse inspirer notre vie et ne pas disposer d'arguments pour se défendre.
-- Françoise Sagan

Thursday, September 30, 2010

CCMA

I walked along the road. It should be called the double Bdul.
There were stores and shops that weren't there before I went out.
They were new, and they were inchis by the time I passed by.
You were new to me too.

No, you were old.
Like the old times, we never got stock somewhere in the conversation.
I like those smart talks about entertains, women and men, food, foreign stories, part-times, unis, and families.
But i felt the distance of thoughts. I hate that.
that i cant speak with tongue to move you.
that a lot.

Talked with mom ab future, ab the jobs now in AIESEC.
I found Anca's profile. I want her to be my impact model role.
It doesn't matter what I study and it doesn't matter if it is connected/so called useful to my final aim. I don't care how hard it may be. Mom said that from what I told her, I did feel it 辛苦.
我無法解釋這兩個字的內涵, 就像我從來無法去解釋中文是怎麼組成的.
She said that's the road we who study these would take.
NO. I do not want to be in my fifties sitting in the sofa watching old movies.
Well that could be nice when i am old. But not from now i presume what i might head for.
I told her this, and I think i hurt her.
She didnt have the chance to choose. She got into this field and she became what she is now.
She got a nice and plain life, which she did not thought of in the first place.
Doomed. I want too much. I don't know my limit.
The other one knows that she can not do this. The other one thinks it was a challenging/interesting/new/learning/meaningful stuff, and so she applied, everything she thought she could. The other one doesnt know her limit. The other one pushes her forward.
She's done this. She gets another another another another new meal.
I think it will keep going on like this.

I miss you at some nights I cannot sleep.
Dun know its because of you so that i cannot, or it's because i cannot so I think of you.
When in Constanta you said you were at home fear of death, dream of death. You called him when walking on those stones and soil.
Things were remembered by images.
I asked if you read.
I think I am the luckiest, for I went to you.
Thank god people still keep in touch.
Hope nothing change next time we meet.

I was in the bus of Bucuresti, and we talked on the phone. You said we would be friends forever.
I once so not believed in FOREVER. They were lies and realities.
But now, theres indeed something called friendship even people cant see/talk with each other.

For the one with a great family, living in Saboana.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

沒有什麼不能承受

今天EP sharing, 我聽見了很多故事,
但有些事是怎麼樣也說不出眼淚說不出孤獨的.
說不出那個感動與成長, 無論是自己或你所以為你為別人.

我想自己是能承受那些不足以被抱怨的事情,
遙遠與孤獨, 衝擊與攻擊,
但關於**, 我寧願****.


然後還是為了這個地方縮減了今天的基基,
對你們說, 每一次你犧牲, 每一次你讓自己把底線退後,
其實你是往前進的.

在團隊裡面, 儘管我從來不是這樣的人,
又或者正因為我不是而無法去意識,
沒有什麼工作份量好比較, 你做到的, 都是為了你可以去學.
學會和那些討人厭溝通相處, 學會公事公辦, 學會強迫自己, 學會去哭去生氣.

我受了那些改變與那些底線的退後,
因為那些山路與那些凝視, 我明白了.

究竟, ****在哪裡?




但我想我NC的ppt要來不及了.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

不想開始

好吧我只能說我就是不想開始,
做了一堆事情就是不做ppt.
還有一個禮拜, 我想我的潛力應該是無窮的吧.

去了TIC, 在美國學校, 在天母, 在坐285要一個多小時的地方.
我想我被吸引的地方不是religion, faith, nor belief.
而是在唱那些歌的時候,
腳是光的身體是搖擺的 情感是釋出的心情是喜悅的.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Gotten - Slash feat. Adam Levine

我妹妹說很好聽,
我也這樣覺得.

起頭

起頭難!!
我不知道要從哪裡開始做Me&Impact.
好煩喔.
我會緊張至死, 反正站在台上就一直是我的罩門.
何況是有兩百個企盼的臉盯著我.

今天看了The Cutting Edge
123都很喜歡
喜歡水, 喜歡冷, 喜歡冰, 喜歡速度.

I've been practicing all my life landing on my feet.
I want to be a determined person.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

complex

I got two cards.

They said that they were surprised it was me who stood up.

Honestly, I am surprised, too.

She said she envied me.

Honestly, I envy them too.

Life is never satisfactory.


I felt something about NC is coming up to me.

But I am trying to avoid it. Why is that?



The mots have been receded behind gradually.

Still I can speak if I recall them.

But they won't come to me by nature.


I don't say poftim when I don't get the word.



Don't know why, it gets empty these days.

I felt no strong emotions. I am back to the one who is blank on the street, looking at everything but seeing nothing.

Now I know what's the cause of those absence.




Shouldn't I make my schedule fuller?

All things to do is push off till weekend.


Am deschis urechile mele, pentru a vedea vocea acele zile.

I should have gone to the intro for sign language today.

DDchen said I should focus on one thing.

Ok, then I should kick off language, AIESEC, and international stuffs.

No, almost everything, in return for my gigi life.

"Bye Bye Disco" by NEW PANTS

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