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Tuesday, January 10, 2017
Sunday, January 08, 2017
Saturday, January 07, 2017
Ambition in life
I thought of what he had told me once, that his dream was to have a family and become a father.
I felt so tiny at that time; I felt that all the things I wanted could not come from this guy.
And now, a bit older than what he was at that time, I understand. I understand that how these things can give you happiness, the ultimate happiness from everything and everyday life.
He will remain the very first person; I continue my life, and meet people like him.
She will remain the very first person; I continue my life, and perhaps will never meet people like her, because I've learnt.
All I hope for this year is to pass the exam, pass the thesis, surpass my job, get a job, pursue something tiny and long-lasting.
I felt so tiny at that time; I felt that all the things I wanted could not come from this guy.
And now, a bit older than what he was at that time, I understand. I understand that how these things can give you happiness, the ultimate happiness from everything and everyday life.
He will remain the very first person; I continue my life, and meet people like him.
She will remain the very first person; I continue my life, and perhaps will never meet people like her, because I've learnt.
All I hope for this year is to pass the exam, pass the thesis, surpass my job, get a job, pursue something tiny and long-lasting.
And I told him about work-life balance
All that for this god damn presentation.
Damn.
This is the last time.
Never again.
I miss so much.
And I cannot do anything.
I cannot change anything. Perhaps all this should have never begun then there won't be an end.
Damn you.
This is never a philosophy, you were so wrong, this is my way of looking things, different from yours.
That's why people say long distance can never work out, needless to say if you are in the same city.
Great.
Damn that presentation.
Damn that job I love.
I thought 2016 was a year about L.
Every great thing comes to L; but I suppose this is why 2017 needs to change.
I do not want this change.
Damn.
This is the last time.
Never again.
I miss so much.
And I cannot do anything.
I cannot change anything. Perhaps all this should have never begun then there won't be an end.
Damn you.
This is never a philosophy, you were so wrong, this is my way of looking things, different from yours.
That's why people say long distance can never work out, needless to say if you are in the same city.
Great.
Damn that presentation.
Damn that job I love.
I thought 2016 was a year about L.
Every great thing comes to L; but I suppose this is why 2017 needs to change.
I do not want this change.
Monday, January 02, 2017
I watched a play called The Art recommended by her today.
I was laughing, but nothing went into my mind, nor my brain.
I was kinda drifted away by my imagination for the future. About her, about him, about my career, about where I might be in a few months.
What if my identity cannot be accepted?
Can I still be me then?
If I accept you, can you accept me?
Am I still affected by my literature background?
Do I really forget about everything?
I was laughing, but nothing went into my mind, nor my brain.
I was kinda drifted away by my imagination for the future. About her, about him, about my career, about where I might be in a few months.
What if my identity cannot be accepted?
Can I still be me then?
If I accept you, can you accept me?
Am I still affected by my literature background?
Do I really forget about everything?
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