IASI

Iasi.
I once have that s in my keyboard.

Miss you so much.
Hope you all good, tho many of you are not in that land anymore.

I thought of the day when I discussed with young Alex ab this, that youngsters were moving away for a far better life, or a more ambitious and challenging life so to say.
Or move to Bucarest, at least.

I once have that c in my keyboard.
I have two dictionaries, french-romanian; english-romanian.
We went to so many beautiful cities and villages.
I made so many beautiful friends, minds, and brains there.

The only wild life ever in my life, so far and may not happen again.

Hope you are all well, pursuing something elsewhere but at the same time 惦念.

我深深明白自己的勇氣在減少，好像我擁有了更多難以失去的一般，ce qui est bizarre

http://womany.net/read/article/6943

我記得我們在車站說好絕不聯絡，六個月後的同一天再聯繫，車廂上告別像是傻子。

但其實每個人對於時間的定義都不一樣。

我不記得後來究竟有沒有再聯絡，我只知道那晚為了他和朋友不告而別我至今都忘記不了。

其實不是這樣的，有些人，儘管有網路的發達，保持聯繫簡單，再見，卻很難。

yesterday

The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do.


And chocolate.


from Simina




facebook always reminds me of place far off.
you have new people coming and going.
and i was one of them.
misses.


how much do i remain?

容納將來

I discarded the letter that I'd kept for nearly six months.
So let's wave goodbye.
And bye.

I hope I won't forget anything happened in that room, 4F, Nova.

But things will never stop if I keep myself like this, all the time and space.


想要的東西就要去掙。
今天跳樹葉的時候我覺得我就像這樣在過生活。

好的，
我想要有事件而旅行，電影，閱讀，排球，世界的互助與上升。

然後紐西蘭的事情再次讓台灣人施展了一次即時的絕佳救援能力，
與相較之下，慢性的災害所給予的漠視。

巫婆

 作者  gin22135 (Geraldine)                                  看板  Maraschino
 標題  [櫥窗] 不爽要繳稅 羅馬尼亞巫婆做法詛咒政府
 時間  Thu Jan  6 22:05:41 2011
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每個人都會詛咒課稅的，但是羅馬尼亞的巫婆玩真的，她們要用貓屎和狗屍作法，詛咒羅
馬尼亞總統和政府。

羅馬尼亞人相當迷信，吸血鬼德古拉的故事，發源於羅馬尼亞，據說，已故的獨裁者（希
奧賽古）和他的太太，都有御用的巫婆，不過他們的巫婆顯然法力不夠，兩人最後被革命
法庭槍斃。

在科學昌明的現代，羅馬尼亞還是有很多人相信神秘之說，羅馬尼亞總統（伯塞斯古）和
他的幕僚會在特定的日子穿紫色衣服以趨避邪祟。

為了抗議政府把巫術納入正式職業，今年開始課稅，羅馬尼亞巫婆大串聯，前往多瑙河作
法。據說，伯塞斯古總統當天就穿上了他的避邪服、紫色西裝。

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雖然這篇新聞有點前言不對後語
(但我已經習慣台灣記者這種低水準的東西了)
但是大致上還看得出來要說什麼

真心覺得很妙
一些我們當作無稽之談的東西在世界上的另一個角落被真實的相信著
同理
一些別人當作理所當然的東西在我們看了是如此不可思議
然我們有沒有胸襟去接受這個事實
並容許別人擁有自己的世界?

然後我也想請巫婆對我的保險學作一作法XD



Gin. xx

connection

I watched Alex's MCP clip.
I watched Giorgiana's interview clip.
I saw mada's good news.


When I saw you, you changed a bit, not like the one in my memory.  I thought of mada's birthday we talked in her balcony and you smoke.
When I listened to you, your language and the way you spoke again arouse something and everything.  and i grabbed only a few words.


very uneased and nostalgic now.

ultrahard

can't help but acclaiming once more i love it.
dear ade,
i love winter photos.
esp. ones with you and ionut.
dun wanna say i miss you cuz that's so much of course and need not mentioning.

nothing is not wonderful.
difficulties as much as challenges happen by season.
and i feel it's ok not to conquer it.

只是對一些事情沒有信心而已。

1011

跑去師大以為你們在但還是買了大台北你來接在吃義大利麵的巷子裡和你有一點距離101太近回松山面對球場每一件事再回想就走不了因為月亮咖啡一群人以為一直待著時間就會倒退嗎
一月沒日沒夜和你們同心拿到PC champion第一次踏上新竹參加wNCF然後被感動得一塌糊塗
二月火車高雄五天飛機場夜市住在高雄仁的家和葉姿佳在他鄉見面一個人淺淺在南邊的日子
三月大英盃你們厲害得要命但我只有心與你們同在申請SRB通過替我和鍾安綾match一天百封
四月地球市集看.net寄推薦信思考太多關於人生與他人之間的衝突與不衝突然後Tina的一封信
五月和iasi來來回回終於簽下合約開始練習看機票與簽證在兩者之間游移拿捏還是無法下決定
六月香港綠色青年認識世界的人與習慣每晚的舞與酒跑簽證恨泰國愛上海對不起也愛很多人
七月糊里糊塗過完簽證飛iasi認識陌生更習慣孤獨練習心態開放嘗試每種人食物文化歷史驚嚇
八月愛penilla當你說你愛我會哭我的臉為你們帶來什麼我真心希望好多寫東西走山路想事情與意義送別Adela的家就是我家向日葵玉米田城堡大雨大山忘不了跳舞喝酒音樂再度轉捩
九月ITtT世界Craus的拉扯與想望第一次淋雨落魄走好久開始傻回來喝珍奶忘記硬幣算法貓空
十月沈溺永別NCfaci兩百人忘詞你的委屈重心轉移看見你忘記世界一點點忘記夢想忘記太多
十一月忘記展覽忘記設計就連綠色也只是淺淺的但是電影還在夢想也還在打球和不放手不放
十二月你那邊在下雪已經不怎麼想念打球緊緊隨著情緒不穩劇本惱人淡水北英盃GJ越來越好

如果真的是這樣那未來好嗎想得太多要分享的就可以太多雖然時間不怎麼多一點也不會太快什麼都好一起就好多一點耐心寬容每個家都會好理想來說三天也不滿足可以每天但是複雜無可避免嗎

報告做完書念完開心回高雄過兩人假期
一邊吃飯一邊夢想一邊愛媽媽一邊睡飽
開刀好順利變好正人生沒有遺憾看世界
美安獵人順利快結婚存錢搬家但看世界
.
.
.
.
complete 41, finals.
love my mom and sis.
care more back.
with every day.
ignore obstacles.


幾個月後，

單細胞

說穿了就是不相信自己
好像回到以前辦展覽跑創創的感覺
什麼都做了但就是不認為結果會好
所以結果真的就不可能會好
我想自己已經忘記secret garden裡面mary說的奇蹟了


沒有做到就是沒有做到


接發爛爆馬的
我也好想要有你的好高招判斷力和好快速移動力還有好智慧吊球


今天驚豔了一下, 雖然其實好像每天都在驚豔.


我希望你說的是真的.


一輪.




i worked on 41 till afternoon and i started to relike it.
craus is now more attractive and more stick to the real one i know.
he isn't him, though.
imagination is often more than better.
i think i forget about craus entirely except his existence in my 41, my mail for 8/2/2011, and a text when stressed.
isn't that wonderful, ade?


hope you are now ok with the trainees.
it's cold today, but not as yours.
i saw mada's status.  where's she going?






七天.
克制與珍惜.

STRICKEN

14:29 我想看.
14:45 i hope your are fine.  talk to me as much as you want.  i will be there anytime for you.  i saw it's 0 degree now in iasi.  is it snowing?  how i wish i could be with you.  miss you and a big hug from me.  :)
15:18 在廁所看了一下鏡子, 怎麼覺得不太像自己, 好像頭髮越來越少了.
16:02 動機被我寫得很像生命記, 怎麼一直deviate, 希望審核官看得津津有味雖然關他屁事.
16:31 好像應該要回家了不然來不及接你.  看了一下Notting Hill的片段, 看多少遍都不會膩.
16:41 其實都只是不願意動筆而已, 停不下來了.

一把鑰匙

我開了門但沒有人.




從鹿鳴路一路騎回家的路上我想到：


等一下要在半個小時內工作完然後念一點書 再睡覺 再去共同上課


我還有好多話沒講你就像是我對我老母(這樣你會開心嗎哈哈)只是可以理解我和我有同樣想法的老母


我實在太慢熟這樣不可以


所有東西都先做完先申請好 再來決定要底要不要雖然知道一切可以轉圜的事情你都會決定很久 為了這樣一點小事就放棄本來的計畫好像太衝動雖然你常常很衝動 但這個impulse太強了還是小心為妙 只是這個在計畫之外的小事讓我覺得很不安好像回到仁愛國中的你站在那個窗台


畢業照好煩我不想照畢業照


應該要排什麼時候寫劇本比較好下禮拜要瘋狂做讀書計畫星期六前要弄好一定一定一定


記得要把算錢寫起來單子還在嗎(摸摸口袋發現不見了馬的)


車好難騎為什麼煞車在左邊


好餓






看完處女座本日運勢我想到：


焦點一定要來跟我們跨年 我第一次跟跨年不可以沒有焦點


skinfood是說你們還是要撐傘美白得那次嗎


我開回應了快點回應我




你說你應該不會待在____讓我有點驚訝但其實我又能理解










晚上要和你們見面 我有點緊張我有點不想我有點不喜歡
我害怕很多事情都已經不一樣了 常常是因為時間
也因為我的世界變得太大




i told you that Alexandra and Otilia(your new members i guess) asked me about my exp in iasi.
there was this question: what are the most important things that you've learned here?
and i said that the meaning of family and friends influence me a lot, from IK especially.


i've been in a family for so long and i love the people here.  but only till these days i find myself really belong here.

shed my skin/The visiter

早上去金展想開票, 但還是拖到下禮拜一因為不想要出港.

不知道為什麼對香港沒有很大的憧憬, 不過也就是一個更小更擠的台北.

但明明GREENeration過得很快樂跳了很多舞也學到很多東西遇見很多人啊.

是怎麼一回事.

我想應該是因為已經recover from post-coference syndrome.

i watched a movie called The Visiter.

it talks about the illegal immigrations in new york.

whenever the illegal immigrants speaks, the subtitle says "foreign language"

and i recognized some romanian.

i knew it sounds like italiano a lot but i didn't know italiano before.

now i know and i am so surprised by their likeness.

i thought of Ana today.

i told you about_____

dun know what did i

i felt like once again standing in front of 200 people making a speech

i couldnt stand still and my mind was blank thoroughly

我從來沒有這麼快衝去球場過

也看了一部德文電影 Vier Minuten

雖然一開始只是為了北歐文 也覺得德文很難聽

但今天聽Tina念 覺得德文其實很溫柔很好聽

只是到底為什麼要有der die das呢

These days i had some contact with LC in india and iasi.

and memories come to me once again and again.

si je continue, il n'y avait pas de fin.

我今天和你說了一點話

然後我回去看了08年的東西, 重新看竟認不出曾經的自己.

寫不完劇本了

難道整個學期每個禮拜就是要在趕劇本中結束嗎

雖然我也很愛寫就是了

但如果真的愛為什麼一直拖呢

欠鞭策

就跟欠嗆的意思是一樣的

蘇方彥：這就是motivation的力量

生活中本來就有很多很正面的東西

我就不懂AIESEC為什麼一定要把它冠一個名字

以前覺得自己一定不會投票

覺得不差我覺得反正我可以自己私底下care就好了

可是現在看這些公文政見

有一種 哇雖然好困難好狗屁但竟然你看得見我們想要的東西

其實你說得出來 我就相信你會做到 你會努力

上禮拜三或是四晚上我看見北斗七星 像一個杓子亮到不行

其實從來就不懂這些 好想學

這篇的labels好多我德文作業還沒對法文也還沒聽劇本更是還沒有進度

這樣對嗎

好想打球

其實整篇要說的就是________

但這樣對嗎

Happy Birthday to you. :))

It's 01:28 in my timezone now, your future.

Thank you so much for being the one far away from me

cuz that makes you inattainable and unharmful.

at the end of the year EU will officially pass the agreement that taiwanese need not a visa to get into any EU countries.

see you some time soon.

these days i saw some discussion and news about the difference between western and eastern culture.

suddenly so glad that my country is merged with so many different cultures and habits around the world and that makes me accept almost everything, esp. food. haha.

how would you be like if you were here?

no you've never told me about him.

i knew there were three trainees but i didnt know there was a particular one.

i did move on.

and move too far on.

i had this promise with him that six months after the previous day i left for bucuresti

we will send each other a mail and that not until then could we contact.

but the truth is that six months and 8000km are far more distant than we thought. or at least than i thought.

i wrote the letter when i was in bucuresti and stored it in my mailbox, stored the ME of that time.

and i've so much changed now.

memories, habits, music, scar, movies remain.

he goes away.

happy birthday to my girl.

The World is Big

a bulgarian/german movie

i see the hard/dry bread (fuck i forgot the name) that jose and i both like

the cheap one

there is one near gara

often in a simple stand

there is also one in the uni building, i guess across the one with the AIESEC office

and i see the chess game i once saw in the mada's house (or somewhere else? penilla?)

the one with some spike, with white and black chess

i really forgot

but i miss it so.

I see you at the corner.

I saw your words and i interpreted it as me.

That day came to me without warning, every piece just breaks in through.

I wasn't that close to you at that time.

I just arrived. We went to Kaufland on the cooking night.

These days in my Deutschkurs there were several times the word KAUFEN threw me to that scene, both the early cooking night and the late Craus told me the meaning of this word on Bdul Stefan cel Mare.

That night I met the people that were not yet connected to me but would and people that were connected to me.

He, i totally forgot his name, one of the twins; he was connected to Julien in Turkey.

He, Alex or Alice, not one of the twin, the one went to Azərbaycan; he met my VP in India.

Exactly again, the power of six people.

Or even 1/2.

I can see you right at the corner of the world.

I told you that the song made me into thinking that there's indeed something can be fixed.

____

These days it got more chilly, I never really took this word seriously until you describe it to me.

I took out some clothing bought in romania and england.

Why is that my warming clothes mostly bought abroad?

I thought of last year, at this season.

I got into AIESEC, the stressed and nonsleep nights, the breaking wind on bike in the early morning and midnight.

There were nights with drizzles I biked back home in the severe cold.

Few people on the road, but now compared to iasi, it seemed more than a lot.

Only at those silent and lonely nights could i deeply sense the surroundings.

Everything was clear and stylish, thought in this copied city.

A year passed. If i have to retrospect like this every year, my life would always jump from summer to winter, and I would never live an autumn forever.

____

I got to be SRB board as a returnee on saturday.

At the same room which i passed mine, i felt nervous as if i was the interviewee.

Today, or yesterday exactly, was 1 november. It's been one and a half month.

But i couldn't______.

All the OGX works pushed me back to times even before i was matched by Edy(?) and Tina.

Every incident reminds me of new pieces i've forgotten.

And that's a whole new story from now me to see.

____

Work is temporarily halted; and there comes the MIDTERM!!

Why should i give a fuck about it?

And why the hell the outcome is not yet come?

Please show my name on that list.

____

I changed my cell desktop.

How are you now Tudor?

notes

When I was in the shower few minutes ago,

my lost bike and my childhood connections,

OGX stuffs, you said i was brainwashed,

weekends of AIESEC,

temperature on dashboard showing 3C in iasi,

weathers recently,

writings on drama and screenplay, the bus 41 and the R.A.T.P.(or RAPT ?) 41,

recruitment in the world and the celebration(why the hell is that?),

the last day in AIESEC office they were discussing recruitment stuffs, you called me saying that you couldn't make it,

FangMin's language in AIESEC world,

to whom it may concern,

come to my mind.

Never take it lightly the thoughts you have when in a shower.

閃電

昨天晚上下了大雨, 也有閃電.

我想起阿嬤家, 以及那天在cluj的第一場大雨.

為什麼他們沒有閃電呢？

為什麼現在那裏是八度呢？

CCMA

I walked along the road. It should be called the double Bdul.

There were stores and shops that weren't there before I went out.

They were new, and they were inchis by the time I passed by.

You were new to me too.

No, you were old.

Like the old times, we never got stock somewhere in the conversation.

I like those smart talks about entertains, women and men, food, foreign stories, part-times, unis, and families.

But i felt the distance of thoughts. I hate that.

that i cant speak with tongue to move you.

that a lot.

Talked with mom ab future, ab the jobs now in AIESEC.

I found Anca's profile. I want her to be my impact model role.

It doesn't matter what I study and it doesn't matter if it is connected/so called useful to my final aim. I don't care how hard it may be. Mom said that from what I told her, I did feel it 辛苦.

我無法解釋這兩個字的內涵, 就像我從來無法去解釋中文是怎麼組成的.

She said that's the road we who study these would take.

NO. I do not want to be in my fifties sitting in the sofa watching old movies.

Well that could be nice when i am old. But not from now i presume what i might head for.

I told her this, and I think i hurt her.

She didnt have the chance to choose. She got into this field and she became what she is now.

She got a nice and plain life, which she did not thought of in the first place.

Doomed. I want too much. I don't know my limit.

The other one knows that she can not do this. The other one thinks it was a challenging/interesting/new/learning/meaningful stuff, and so she applied, everything she thought she could. The other one doesnt know her limit. The other one pushes her forward.

She's done this. She gets another another another another new meal.

I think it will keep going on like this.

I miss you at some nights I cannot sleep.

Dun know its because of you so that i cannot, or it's because i cannot so I think of you.

When in Constanta you said you were at home fear of death, dream of death. You called him when walking on those stones and soil.

Things were remembered by images.

I asked if you read.

I think I am the luckiest, for I went to you.

Thank god people still keep in touch.

Hope nothing change next time we meet.

I was in the bus of Bucuresti, and we talked on the phone. You said we would be friends forever.

I once so not believed in FOREVER. They were lies and realities.

But now, theres indeed something called friendship even people cant see/talk with each other.

For the one with a great family, living in Saboana.

Internship- Experience in Grădiniţă Penilla

I wrote this on the feedback day between kindergarten managers and IK team. It's my life only in Penilla, not entirely recorded but generally.

Post it on, for people going to International Kindergarten in next year in Romania, Iasi.

_______________________________________________________________

Dear kindergarten managers and AIESECers from International Kindergarten project,

I am sitting at the table in a friend’s apartment and at the meanwhile you are in Cuturesti, talking about the feed back of this project. I apologize that I did not accept the invitation for my personal reason. Still, I am more than willing to share with you my experience here, in Gradinita Penilla.

I still remember the first day I went to Penilla. It was sunny. Tina and I struggled all the way to the top of the hill. I saw yellow Penilla shining under the sun and I fell immediately in love with it. The director gave me a guide in the mazed-like Penilla. We saw the kids and how they worked. The next day I stayed beside Stefania’s classroom, watching Otilia teaching kids about the colors of balls. I was so impressed by their interaction; I was so amazed by kids’ cleverness. I started to imagine and plan my lessons.

I discussed with Otilia about the content and the theme for the following days and weeks. We talked almost every day after the lunch in the first two weeks. She showed me what she’d done with the kids in her term in Penilla. We saw the paper works, the drawings, the DVDs, the photos and all that. They were so nice. But, the thing that really moved me was that she kept these histories all the time. I saw Giovani on the wall of the classroom, and I thought,”hmm, that must be her favorite.” We shared our backgrounds and things that happened.

In Penilla, there are four groups, the big ones, middle, little, and the handicapped ones. In summer, they made them three, big, small, and handicapped. Along my internship, especially before the seven-year-old kids left for holiday, we did a lot of things pretty intensely. We did something about the food pyramid, we got to know the name of different food, we made milk tea and cooked salad. We had a lot of fun. After the seven-year-old kids and some teachers left for holiday, we had some chaotic time. But still we did something like knowing the name of different musical instrument, hearing different sounds and got to know the musical types of different world areas. Also there were handcraft weeks which we did origami, cultural weeks which we invited trainees from Puerto Rico, Russia, and Hong Kong, Moreover, we went to see animals and do some costume role play in a tiny zoo near banlieu. We also made some birthday parties to celebrate their new coming age. After the meeting with Alexandra from the House of Fairies, I started to group kids into different learning types, like some need to hear things, some see things, and some do things. That really helped me a lot on account of the combination of various teaching methods and materials. There was a time, Alexandra said that Jacquline(a trainee from Brazil) was always with kids and now the kids turned more to Jacquline than to her. Deep in my heart, I promised myself that I am gonna be like that.

It seemed like we did a lot of things. Nonetheless, most of the time, we were in the playground. There were two rather big playgrounds. We can have a running race, play basketball, ride bicycles, do jump rope, climb trees to get the apple and some more. Honestly speaking, that was one of my flaws, I did not state how much time I needed for the lesson. So sometimes we just let the time go and spent whole morning in the playground. I have to admit that I love the time in the playground and ball room (Penilla has a fantastic ball room for kids to play inside.) more than the time for teaching.

As the time went by, I stayed longer and longer. But I no longer gave them formal lessons., for the fact that all ages mixed together and we had no enough teachers. However, I did more when doing nothing. Children taught me Romanian and their routines. I played intellectual games with bigger kids; I fed the kids that yet grew up; I changed their pajamas , gave them apă. I try to communicate with Alexandra and Razvan; i learned to say NO and WHY to kids. I believe that there were always more to learn in life and nature than in the classroom. There were times I stayed till all the kids went home with parents and school bus. I met the parents in the morning and afternoon. I got to know who was whose kid and got them to their parents when time came. Then, I found that the promise was fulfilled, by my learning of Romanian and their effort to communicate with me. Kids here could speak so well in English. Still, when they tried really really hard to speak easier Romanian and use their facial and body language, I was so moved.

We encountered some children new to kindergarten, like Rares, Cristi, and Adelina. Most of the time they cried like hell. But the situation got better few weeks later. When we saw Cristi handing his hand and moving to get something, trying to speak, it was so cute. At the last day, I was even crying when I held Rares to sleep.

For me, I did not consider myself as an English teacher. I was a figure of culture, for them to study and to observe; I was a girl with different looking, for them to play with. One pity was that I did not manage to present my country by power point as I did in Paradisul de Copiii.

Teachers, director, Mr. Nicu (sorry, all the time I couldn’t figure out your position.) and his family, and cooker, and Veronica all treated me extremely nice. I appreciate you so much for that and the tasty food, coffee, chalks, tapes, mops, papers as well as my holidays.

Once I asked Otilia, “Do you think they will remember you when they grew up?” She was so sure about that. And I so much hope these young faces always have me in their mind. I told this to Anca, the president of this project, and she said that it didn’t matter they remember you or not. What matters is that you put something in them, and they take that all the way to their grownup time.

All the time, I was thinking, what if I was raised by this kindergarten, what if I was one of them, what if I met the same kind of teacher when I was little. Everything would be different if so, for there were social development, knowledge instruction, moral teaching, laugh, and love.

Sincerely yours,

Jessy, Lin Yi Ting from Taiwan

stretch

If you think that add something to your life,

then you can give whatever you want to me.

Last day of training, I felt so successful.

I pushed myself forward. Gigis have this potential.

We dive in.

Today the girl sat in front of me talking on the phone in Korean.

I knew nothing and I smiled, for I thought of you.